I haven't smiled since you left.

So, after a week of not talking to him, and believing that all he needed was space and that he was waiting for me to be back from summer for us to be together.. he tells me he is in a relationship. 

I should have known really, he's no different to the others. 

Why should I believe a word anyone says to me anymore?

I'm better off alone anyway. 

I don't need all this hurt in my life. 

I fucking hate guys that lead you on and build up your hopes and let you fall for them. 

And then all they do is turn around and tear your world apart. 

I should have listened to him when he told me I should walk away. but I wanted to show him what happiness felt like. I wanted to make him happy because he was always so sad. I wanted to be the one to show him what love was. I wanted to be with him so bad. 

Well atleast he got what he wanted, he's happy now, just not with me. Just in the process, I ended up getting hurt. As always. 

It's so hard not to feel sad when everyone around me is so happy with their lives. 

And I feel like mine is a lost cause, taking me no where, with absolutely nothing to look forward to.

I hope she hurts you because you're a fucking dick.

harsh words but I don't care. 

Go along and play happy families. 

Don't you dare come crying to me when it all goes wrong.

I wish I'd never met you.

i love the sound of rain outside my window.

Stuck in her daydream...

.... Been this way since eighteen. 

When is someone going to come along and save me? 

Getting lonely stuck revising in this dark flat. 

Missing the flatmates ♥

Tell me, did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there?

So my life feels pretty empty without you. 

You made me whole again. 

Please come back. 

 ♥

the future is ours.

I wish you would let me in. 

I'm crazy about you. 

 I really am, I'm falling for you. ♥

This is probably the worst idea that I've ever had. I'm proabably going to get hurt. But I'm not scared anymore. I think we are meant to be. We are so good together. We just fit. He's the risk that I'm willing to take. 

I can't get you out of my head. 

Broken.

I miss when we used to go for walks on the playing field, especially when we climbed the fence and went down by the river. I miss the times we would go for random drives, just becuase we had nothing else to do. I miss going up lyth hill and lying in our spot just chatting for hours on end. I miss how we would go for a macdonalds and you would always laugh at my parking. I miss how I called you jimmy. I miss how you would always check up on the football every minute of every day. I wish I hadn't gotten so annoyed at you for doing that now. I miss how we'd always go and sit in your garden and talk to your parents. I miss coming in from a night out and passing out in your kitchen and tip-toeing upstairs without waking anyone up. I miss the smell of your aftershave. I miss driving home at 11pm from a whole day with you. I miss playing on your blackberry. I miss lying in your bed watching Casualty on a Saturday night. I miss being called down for dinner and quickly getting dressed and putting make up on. I miss going for walks to the shops and buying lots of sweets. I miss writing letters to you and doing anything I can to make you smile. I miss playing Fifa with you and trying my hardest to beat you. I miss playing pictionary and monopoly. I miss seeing your face on skype and taking snapshots for memories. I miss taking pictures and voice recordings of you. I miss finding little notes from you which you always gave to me when you left me. I miss spooning and arguing who was being spooned. I miss singing with you and deciding who had the best music taste. I miss baking cakes with you. I miss dancing with you. I miss ticking your tummy. I miss hearing you say "Julieee" really loudly. I miss really small things like all of this. But most of all I miss the sound of your voice. And I miss being loved by you. Becuase with you was the happiest time of my life, and although it's been four months, I'm still completely in love with you. And I think it's safe to say that you broke my heart.

Lonely.

Sometimes I feel really sad.

I can sit here and cry for hours and hours, and in the morning no one will know. 

Sometimes it hurts so much. 

I used to listen to those songs with you. 

Songs about heartbreak, and I never ever imagined I would one day relate them to you. 

You were the best thing that ever happened to me. 

I want you back. 

I miss everything so much sometimes. 

"And all the time you were tellin' me lies
So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times we had tonight
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you 

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?
Well, you could try sleeping in my bed "

                                                        -Alicia Keys