So hello, good friend.

I saw him today. And everything was fine. I had such a good time with him. I was so surprised. We laughed, we spoke and we were just us again. Minus all the boyfriend and girlfriend stuff. It feels really good to have my friend back. To know that we can finally draw a line under everything that happened and just smile. Not one of my friends understands why I needed to see him today. But I did. It was just something I had to do. And it went fine. It was lovely. We spoke about the past and laughed about all the memories we shared. And we also spoke about the present and everything that is going on in our lives now. I didn't so much like the stories about all the girls that he has been with. But it was fine. It was something I needed to do and I did it with pride and conquered all the fear that I felt. And he hugged me. And for the first time, I felt like I had really let him go. And although there was a point when I wondered what would happen if I just leant in and kissed him, there were no feelings anymore. It was just a friendship. We are just two people who know each other so well, who can finally be friends and forget all the bad things that we have been through in the past. And now I know I can go to Spain knowing that I have closure and that everything has been cleared up. My whole life lies ahead of me now. I can finally move on from every little thing. And the best thing is that I don't want to be with him anymore. Not now or at anytime in the future. He's changed. His whole attitude on life has changed. And although it hurts to know he isn't the same person anymore, it makes me happy to know that I could never go back to him. I'm over him, I don't care for what could have been anymore. I'm over him and that's the way it is from now on.