Sunday, 11 December 2011

too many emotions.

I have so many emotions going through my head that I just don't know what to do with them all. This is when I feel I have to write them all out here. But then when it comes to it, I don't know how I feel or what I feel. I was doing just fine before I met him. Everything was good, I was happy, there was nothing more that I wanted. And then I went and fucking met him. And from the moment I left him standing there on that platform, I haven't been the same person. I left a part of me with him, and I don't think he even realises that. He has no idea that I'm feeling like this and I'm far too scared to tell him. How is it even possible that I've fallen this hard for him? He was just a stranger a couple of weeks ago and now he's the only thing I want in life. I don't want anything else. But I don't even know if I'll see him again. He just text me right this second saying "you're amazing". He's amazing. He's the nicest guy I've ever met in my whole life. Him and I just fit together. It felt so perfect in his arms. But now I don't know what I'm supposed to do. My head is a mess. I can't concentrate because he's literally all I think about. All I want to do is plan when we can next see each other, but I don't want to seem keen. It is the most complicated situation I have ever been in. I just want to see him again. I would tell him how I feel and I would never let him go. He's amazing and all I want to do is make him happy. I don't want to say I love him, because I don't know if I do. But I like him so much, it really does hurt.

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